Tired of Hiding

I’m that happy-go-lucky, roll-with-the-punches girl who seems to have it all together with a never-fading, super-cheesy smile on my face to prove it. But, truth is, I only let you see what I want you to see. Does that mean it’s a lie? No. I am very happy-go-lucky, I try my best to roll-with-the-punches, and I love to smile. But behind all that, I’m not even close to “having it all together”. I’m human just like everyone else. I have weaknesses and shortcomings. I’ve had struggles and frustrations. I’ve been hurt and I’ve been shaken. Life has been anything but easy…

Lately God has been showing me the power of just being real. None of us have lived a perfect, easy, painless, worry free life so why try to pretend we have? We all have pasts we’d like to forget, scars we’d like to remove, and wounds that still hurt. That’s a pretty grim reality right there. But you know what? It’s what links us all together. We all have that in common. We’ve all dealt with a lot of the same emotions/struggles we just got them many different ways…If we would just be real with each other I think we would find that we can all relate in so many ways. But we won’t let ourselves be real for fear of being rejected, condemned, looked down on, and ultimately left alone. But hiding who we truly are-I mean all of who we are-is no life at all. How long can we keep up only ever truly being ourselves when no one is around? Don’t you ever get tired? I know I do. I’ve decided that it’s time to let all of me show. That means the good, the bad, the ugly, and the beautiful. I’m sure there will be people who will judge me, condemn me, be disappointed in me, reject me, walk away from me, and who knows what else…But I’ve come to a place where I’m okay with that; and it’s such a freeing place to be.

So I’m on this new challenge right now; letting people see "Through the Façade…"